Gimme A Fucking Break...

I just balanced my checkbook. Just paying Rent and WPS....I have nothing left for the next two weeks.

Nothing. I don't have a single cent to my name.

Despite the fact that it was free, I should be glad my friends all bailed on Sister Hazel.

Hard To Say What It Is I See In You...

I'm going to see Sister Hazel tonight!

Ponderingment...

Yes. It's a word.

Should I start blogging about my adventures as a hotel "Clubhouse" hostess?

Am I A Gay Man Trapped In A Woman's Body...

I so want to go see them.

Bitch, Please...

Avril, You go and release a completely girl fun song like "Girlfriend", and you have to follow it up with some sappy ballad to prove you are a serious artist.

What a buzzkill in the morning.

Because I Thought You'd Like To Know...

I love my kitties, Sandy Meowfax and Svetlana Meowerson.

I do love them.

Finally...

I needed some good news today. I got a letter from school this morning, so instantly this feeling of dread sets in. I had such an ordeal last summer just getting registered that I couldn't imagine this to be good news.

It was my student lon letter. I was awarded enough in subsidized loans to cover the Fall semster completely including books. If I watch it pretty closely, I can probably get a little to spill over into the spring semester. Which is going to be expensive.

I logged in to check my GPA at the same time to find that my Ethics teacher bumped my grade up to an A.

All of that has almost made me completely forget about the horrible experience that was my first post employment bank experience.

Poopyity poop. I am hungry as hell and didn't really plan on that happening today. LOL. It's too warm in my house to want to eat. But sitting here in the air conditioned laundromat, hungry has certainly hit me.

Seriously...

I was hoping someone would have "offed" Miss Hilton whilest in jail.

Fan-Fucking-Tastic...

It appears I failed to pay my one credit card bill last month in the whole lost card commotion.

End result: $60 in fees.

My Life Comes Crashing Down...

I went on my annual camping trip this weekend. I really couldn't afford to go but such is life I guess.

I had a nice time with my friends. It was funny to see how we have all changed and are in very different spots in our life right now. It's strange.

I left feeling very relaxed with the exception of my allergies trying to end my life this weekend...but you know, that's my own fault.

My life was waiting for me today when I got home. There are dishes to do. Liter boxes to clean. Such and such. My termination packet was still on the table where it's been sitting since I got it. I paid the bills I was putting off to feel like I had money. I filed for the unemployment I know I am going to get denied for. The bank called again today. Seems Karen (the branch manager) wanted to take me to lunch this week. Get this..."Because she is worried about me." Fuck that. She wants to clear her guilt. That's all she wants. In the end, she made the call to fire me, she knows I can't afford to be without that extra income. It all makes me wish this wasn't my life sometimes.

I hate this all right now. So if I seem busy, it's because I am trying not to remember how much I hurt right now.

She's Pumping Up The Party...

Joe bought the Hannah Montana for himself tonight. LOL

Taking The Long Way...

I got my termination packet from the bank today. They are docking my paycheck 10 hours. Apparently, I took more vacation time then I was entitled to. I am sorry...but that's bullshit. I just feel like I have been punched in the stomache.

Fuck them.

Wal-mart has been pretty cool right now. I am working full-time hours 4 days this week. That'll really help with money. I start my new second job next week. I will be hostessing at the restaurant that Melly works at. It's just two days a week and money isn't great...but *shrugs*. I need all the money I can gets. Ya know. I am also needing more Wal-mart apparel since all my clothes are too nice to wear there...so I need to shop.

I am having a hard time shopping right now, because I know money is going to be tight.

Ug. Well, I watched Shut Up and Sing today. It was really enjoyable. It was about the fall out that the Dixie Chicks experienced after their freedom of speech issues.

Major Bummer...

"Hi, it's me. I just woke up."

"Well, um."

"I am aware of what this means. I haven't even had time to get in the shower yet, so since you are firing me, or suspending me I have no urge to get on work clothes and be sent home."

"I have to talk it over with Karen."

"Well, I am going to get in the shower and call you back."

Post shower...

"This is out of my control"

"I'm aware."

"We need you to bring in your keys and any bank materials you may have at home."

I was fired this morning. I overslept. Being fired didn't shock me. I knew it was going to happen. Cleaning out my work station was really depressing though. That's too bad. I haven't cried yet. I should. I am upset, but I don't know if I am going to cry about it. I was 3 weeks away from being fully vested in my 401k. The extra sleep wasn't worth the 6 grand I lost this morning.

I just lost 6 years of my life today, for nothing.

I have already been to the store to see about picking up some more hours...I could work at the Claridge, if I wanted to and Katie can probably give me some hours at Pat's so you know...I'm sure it'll all work out.

It's making it really hard to get excited about going out of town this weekend.

Movie Mumblings...

Hostel 2 = big bag of suck.

Oh. My. God. ...

The Gin Blossoms are going to be in the next city over. I am so excited, I might actually pee.

In addition to them, I am probably going to see The Wreckers and Maroon 5 (if they ever annouce tour dates) in my near future.

I am pumped.

Brace Yourself...

Trishy trish wants to go to the KG. The most tragically fantastic nightmare of a bar ever. OHMY! I hope I have shenanigans to post in the morning.

Oh, She Is Going To Lose That Baby...

As in, actually misplace the child.

Kiki came to find me last night. She dropped the bomb on me. She's going to be a Mommy!

I just kind of sat there for a minute. Once I saw how happy she was, I couldn't help but smile for her.

I couldn't keep my eyes from scanning the newer, softer curves my dear friend is sporting. Code: HER BOOBIES ARE HUGE!

I am not going to lie. She's the last person that anyway expected would be having a child anytime soon. All I could think laying in bed was, well, I guess it's a good thing her life plan changed.

Remind me to tell you about Chad law later today. It's totally in play here.

They Aren't Your Friends, They Are Zombies. They Just Want To Eat You...

So...It has been pointed out to me that there is a T Virus outbreak.

A large portion of my friends are suddenly ill, some worse then others. Some in the hospital. I hope the Bartender is ok. But I imagine he is seeing as how I just got a text that read...

"Room 2236 bring tacos"

Zombies. Sweet. I am finally going to be in a movie!

Movie Mumblings...

So yesterday I pulled a double feature movie day.

Ocean's 13 - Not exactly a movie you go see because it's going to win an Oscar anytime soon. You go simply to be entertained. That I was. I do love the movie sin this series and it always helps when you are insanely attracted to most of the cast.

Knocked Up - Easily the most entertaining chick flick I have seen in some time. I loved this. This is the first movie that I have sat in the dark and thought to myself, "I must own this movie". It was fantastic. I laughed my ass off.

The Best Way To Start A Sentence...

So, I was surfing Barry Manilow's Myspace page, and OMG! Lots of freakshow to be found on there.

It Happens Just Like That...

Today I received the greatest news. I stopped home from on lunch today after dining on some delish tacos from my favorite tavern and had a giant envelope from UW-Madison.

Today I got my acceptance letter.

I cried. I don't have time to explain the details of the program right now, but life is good.

A Wedding Photo...

Are You Ready To Jump...

There are big changes on the way for me. Scary changes

What A Day...

I'm only operating at about 87% today. I stopped at the Winchester last night to talk to Bartender, only to find him sitting at the bar. Well, one thing led to another and in a short amount of time, Davey had me drunk. And you know, that was fine. I don't work for a little bit yet, so who cares.


Well, Bartender's girlfriend yesterday accused me of being an alcoholic. Not just me, but Bartender too. I went into a blind rage. How dare she! This girl doesn't even know me really.

So, in true alcoholic fashion, I went to the bar. Bartender knew what she said, so I am assuming she attempted some damage control and pleaded her case to him. He said, that while she didn't mean to imply that, he understands where I am coming from. Also admitted she had no right to judge either one of us. She doesn't know how often I sit there talking to him drinking Diet Coke.

Well, I am sure I'll get over it...but for now it's off to work.

But Hey...

At least the cats can be in the same room together now.

Oh...Casey Meowerson is the new cat's name.

And I Thought I Was Making Progress...

I got completely blindsided this morning. I was hauled into the office yet again today.

I didn't see this one coming. They have never caught me off guard before. In the whole "sometimes you are the windshield, sometimes you are the bug" analogy...I am the dead bug.

I thought I was making improvements at work. I thought I was really trying. Apparently, some improvements aren't enough. It was to be a complete over night change.

I started crying. Which I hate, I do not believe in weakness. It leaves you open for attack. I asked to go home at that point and take a vacation day. I was denied.

I was sat down and told that my efforts are simply not enough, my attitude has to change and that I am simply not pulling my fair share of work. Then they send me crying back to the teller line. But...I have attitude issues, so I am not allowed to be down at all because "We employ happy people."

Really, since when?

I don't know what else to do. My ass is too fat to flip the cartwheels they clearly are looking for. "I have a good job with good hours, so I should relish in that fact".

I don't know what to do. I can't really take a pay cut, I am already living by the skin of my teeth. I really have an insane amount of vacation time for being employed only 6 years there.

I just don't fucking know what to do anymore.

Bartender moved out of the building this week, I'm bummed about that. But he's coming over for our taco/movie date tonight. He grabs Taco Bell after he closes the bar and heads on over here to watch a movie.

A friend's mom passed away Wednesday. That sucks. I hate funerals.