Oh, And That...

Bartender's bat shit crazy ex girlfriend asked me to be her maid of honor today. In a text message. The wedding is next weekend.

Is "Fuck no" appropriate?

My Wish...

I wish that no one ever had to feel the heart ache of losing someone close to them ever. Anners mother passed away about an hour ago. I am heart broken. I never knew her, but the loss my friend is currently dealing with is killing me. I am speechless. I am crying right now for her. Her mother was very sick, so it is probably a blessing. But seeing that blessing is often tough through the tears.

Bartender's mom is currently in labor. Has been all day.

What a strange day this is turning out to be. Lots more tears then I expected.

Ain't No Sunshine When She's Gone...

It occurred to me today, that all the joy is gone from my life. There is nothing that really excites me the way it used to. Things I used to love have lost all appeal. I have even said things like..."I have been tired since 2005." I can't remember the last time I got really excited about something and not felt some sort of feeling of dread along with it. Even dressing up and going out with my friends on halloween wasn't fun.

Where did the lights in my life go? When did I become a black hole of nothing? When did I start having depression issues? How long have I been like this? Can I take my life back?

I am going to the gym tonight. My clothes don't fit.

I'm Kind Of A Big Deal Around Here...

I get this alot. I'll be walking through a bar, and someone will come up to me and be like...

"Hey Juicy, how are you?"

Or some comparable pleasantry and I'm forced to carry on an uncomfortable conversation with some person I do not know.

How are people I do not know comfortable enough to use my nickname? Do they know my name? Do they know how annoying I am actually finding it when strangers address me so personally?

I Am Not Seeing The Beauty Today...

Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down
It can break your heart.

Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road
At the end of the day.

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has it's own way
Of taking it's sweet time.

No, life ain't always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride.

Life ain't always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walking
All these lonely miles.

And wish for just one minute
That I could see your pretty face
Guess, I can dream
But life don't work that way.

But the struggles make me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has it's own way
Of taking it's sweet time.

No, life ain't always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride.

What a beautiful ride...

That's all I have today.  I am pretty down.  Maybe I'll explain later.  That's it for now. 

"One Day It's Heaven, One Day It's Hell..."

Oh boy, did my day suck major balls. Donkey balls. Big donkey balls. Big, hairy donkey balls.

And then, I came home to discover I passed my Algebra exam I was worried about. And not by the slim margin I expected. Perfect score baby!!!

That helps alot.

The missing school books are not setting well with me ... even yet. I had to order the replacements today. You hear that, it's my credit card whimpering back into my wallet.

I Have Got A Diease...

I bought another purse today with some birthday moolah.

Like I really needed a red satin hand bag.

Well, Now, That Can't Be Good...

Ever have that uneasy feeling when you walk out of an exam because the test was way easier then the homework?

I do not feel good about the Algebra test.

I, however, am supremely confident that I failed my Geology exam. Abso-fucking-lutely positive.

Oh well. To quote the professor, "It's not panic time yet."

Oh, It Wasn't So Bad...

And by that, I mean it was great. I cried a bit, but I laughed more. I was upset with the world a bit, but my friends loved me more.

Ok, maybe one more birthday won't kill me. But I swear...that is it then, no more after this next one!! ;)

For the first time ever, my Mother produced a birthday gift on my birthday. It was an amazing one too. Tires. I am getting new tires. Who would have guessed my Mother actually listens when I talk!? Melly bought me a beautiful Hello Kitty glass ornament. MrsGiggles, hand made me a breathtaking card. Ray-Ray got me this bottle of perfume I had been eyeing up. Kiki got me a pretty bitchin' that's right, I said bitchin' Hello Kitty clutch purse. My wonderful friends took me out to dinner. Despite the fact that Bartender couldn't make it, I think he felt worse then I did about this, I had a pretty great time. I love when I can get my friends all in one spot at the same time. Kids, school schedules, drastically varying work schedules, and distance often makes this tough.

To make up for Bartender not being able to make it, Davey and Junior are taking Bartender and I to this brewery about 30 minutes north of here, which will include a stop at my favorite Squishy person in the world.

Ok...Homework. Seriously, I have two exams tomorrow. And my books, still MIA.

I'll load the pictures later. Blogger is being a bitch.


Blogger got less bitchy! Yea!

Oh, It's That Day...

I don't think I am going to celebrate my birthday anymore.

And who steals a back pack full of school books. And I thought I was a geek.

Everyone Celebrates Their Birthday For A Week, Right?

That my friends is a bucket of beer. That's what you get for birthdays around here.

Tagged Like A Deer On The Tailgate of an F150...

OK...HST tagged me for 8 random facts about me....

1) I have broken every finger and toe.
2) I cannot stand an open, empty mailbox.
3) Storms are terrifying.
4) I have a laundry scent fetish. Must smell amazing.
5) My cats are more important to me then I ever expected.
6) The thought of finally having my own holiday tradition makes me smile.
7) My friends are amazing. Only family I'll ever need (The fish is considered in the friend column)
8) Losing my job was the best thing to happen to me. Free. I am free.

I Used To Hang Out 2 Houses Over From Where This Happened...

Off-Duty Officer Kills 6

This took place 20 minutes east of here.

Argh...

A coin bank contains Nickels, Dimes, and Quarters. There are 14 nickels, 1/6 of the coins are dimes, and 3/5 are quarters. How many total coins are there?

Why can't I do this?! Ok, take a shot at it. I already know the answer, but I would really love to know how to get there.

Thank Fucking God...

I got an A on my Algebra exam.

Dear god, did I need that.

I'm Not Even Going To Pretend To Be Sad...

Britney lost custody of her kids today. Thank god!