It's So Deserved...

My beloved Chicago Cubs are in the playoffs.

I love October baseball!!!

Woot!

Ouch...

I just took a math test that actually made my head hurt.

Validate Me, Love Me...

I am having esteem issues.

Someone quick, take me on a date. Doesn't have to mean anything...just need to feel special, even for a few minutes.

Words From A Dying Man...

"Brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls aren't there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to show us how badly we want things."

Randy Pausch, a terminal cancer patient/professor at Carngie Mellon spoke these words this week.

I'd do good to keep them in mind lately.

Destiny...

Transformers gets released on DVD on my birthday.

A Quote...

"I am going to sit on the couch and bask in my own sweetness."

-The boy next door.

How Does It Feel...

To know that my pig tails are pulled to tight, and hurt my head.

Ow.

The Costs Of Stress...

Everytime I start to feel everything falling apart, every joint in my body feels like it's fused together.

I feel this mostly in my back, the more upset I get, the tighter my back gets. Now, breathing hurts.

I also tend to pick at imaginary blemishes on my face. I have a hole on my chin that's scabbing over from earlier in this week.

And what's really cool is how much hair I lose. Thankfully, I have a rather thick head of hair. It's quickly graying, but thick none the less...so you can't really tell.

It is really disgusting though having to clean the shower drain every other day.

The Face Of A Breakdown...

Hi. That's me. I feel like I am falling apart at the seams a little more everyday.

I have so much to write about how I feel like I am hitting my max, but I can't even take the time to tell you because, I spent my time myspacing. God, I'm a fucking moron.

I Can't Believe I'm Saying This...

I like Britney's new single...Gimme More.

It's not bad and it makes me wanna dance.

"I Never Knew That Everything Was Falling Through..."

This happens to me alot. I get into something and develop a tendency to freak out a little bit.

I am freaking out.

Algebra, Geology, Macroeconomics.

*bits lip* Oh dear. Can I handle this?

Annoying...

God, I hate the first day back at class. They are trying to make it exciting, turns out it's just really fucking distracting for me. I wanted to get some shit done on my break between classes, but there is so much commotion on campus that I can't hardly think. There is a fucking balloon artist for fuck's sake. However...I do kind of want him to make me a penguin.

I am already thinking that my Geology class is going to be a handful. I hear that this instructor will change my life, but all I see is a crazy man who told me outright that there is no way that I will ever get an A in his class. I have to wonder if he's challenging me to see if I can.

I have Algebra next. I am really going to wish I took this in high school I think.

It's Finally Happened...

I've turned into one of them.

The boys that is.

I was standing a the fridge just now, making my dinner in the soft glow of that 60 Watt bulb, and I dropped the slice of bread that was to be the perfect mate to my hot dog. I stood there for a full 20 seconds or so, staring at it. I grabbed the ketchup, squirted some on it...and then I picked it up off the floor and complete it's destiny date with my hot dog.

It was only later, that I realized that, I am disgusting.