Gimme A Fucking Break...

I just balanced my checkbook. Just paying Rent and WPS....I have nothing left for the next two weeks.

Nothing. I don't have a single cent to my name.

Despite the fact that it was free, I should be glad my friends all bailed on Sister Hazel.

Hard To Say What It Is I See In You...

I'm going to see Sister Hazel tonight!

Ponderingment...

Yes. It's a word.

Should I start blogging about my adventures as a hotel "Clubhouse" hostess?

Am I A Gay Man Trapped In A Woman's Body...

I so want to go see them.

Bitch, Please...

Avril, You go and release a completely girl fun song like "Girlfriend", and you have to follow it up with some sappy ballad to prove you are a serious artist.

What a buzzkill in the morning.

Because I Thought You'd Like To Know...

I love my kitties, Sandy Meowfax and Svetlana Meowerson.

I do love them.

Finally...

I needed some good news today. I got a letter from school this morning, so instantly this feeling of dread sets in. I had such an ordeal last summer just getting registered that I couldn't imagine this to be good news.

It was my student lon letter. I was awarded enough in subsidized loans to cover the Fall semster completely including books. If I watch it pretty closely, I can probably get a little to spill over into the spring semester. Which is going to be expensive.

I logged in to check my GPA at the same time to find that my Ethics teacher bumped my grade up to an A.

All of that has almost made me completely forget about the horrible experience that was my first post employment bank experience.

Poopyity poop. I am hungry as hell and didn't really plan on that happening today. LOL. It's too warm in my house to want to eat. But sitting here in the air conditioned laundromat, hungry has certainly hit me.

Seriously...

I was hoping someone would have "offed" Miss Hilton whilest in jail.

Fan-Fucking-Tastic...

It appears I failed to pay my one credit card bill last month in the whole lost card commotion.

End result: $60 in fees.

My Life Comes Crashing Down...

I went on my annual camping trip this weekend. I really couldn't afford to go but such is life I guess.

I had a nice time with my friends. It was funny to see how we have all changed and are in very different spots in our life right now. It's strange.

I left feeling very relaxed with the exception of my allergies trying to end my life this weekend...but you know, that's my own fault.

My life was waiting for me today when I got home. There are dishes to do. Liter boxes to clean. Such and such. My termination packet was still on the table where it's been sitting since I got it. I paid the bills I was putting off to feel like I had money. I filed for the unemployment I know I am going to get denied for. The bank called again today. Seems Karen (the branch manager) wanted to take me to lunch this week. Get this..."Because she is worried about me." Fuck that. She wants to clear her guilt. That's all she wants. In the end, she made the call to fire me, she knows I can't afford to be without that extra income. It all makes me wish this wasn't my life sometimes.

I hate this all right now. So if I seem busy, it's because I am trying not to remember how much I hurt right now.

She's Pumping Up The Party...

Joe bought the Hannah Montana for himself tonight. LOL

Taking The Long Way...

I got my termination packet from the bank today. They are docking my paycheck 10 hours. Apparently, I took more vacation time then I was entitled to. I am sorry...but that's bullshit. I just feel like I have been punched in the stomache.

Fuck them.

Wal-mart has been pretty cool right now. I am working full-time hours 4 days this week. That'll really help with money. I start my new second job next week. I will be hostessing at the restaurant that Melly works at. It's just two days a week and money isn't great...but *shrugs*. I need all the money I can gets. Ya know. I am also needing more Wal-mart apparel since all my clothes are too nice to wear there...so I need to shop.

I am having a hard time shopping right now, because I know money is going to be tight.

Ug. Well, I watched Shut Up and Sing today. It was really enjoyable. It was about the fall out that the Dixie Chicks experienced after their freedom of speech issues.

Major Bummer...

"Hi, it's me. I just woke up."

"Well, um."

"I am aware of what this means. I haven't even had time to get in the shower yet, so since you are firing me, or suspending me I have no urge to get on work clothes and be sent home."

"I have to talk it over with Karen."

"Well, I am going to get in the shower and call you back."

Post shower...

"This is out of my control"

"I'm aware."

"We need you to bring in your keys and any bank materials you may have at home."

I was fired this morning. I overslept. Being fired didn't shock me. I knew it was going to happen. Cleaning out my work station was really depressing though. That's too bad. I haven't cried yet. I should. I am upset, but I don't know if I am going to cry about it. I was 3 weeks away from being fully vested in my 401k. The extra sleep wasn't worth the 6 grand I lost this morning.

I just lost 6 years of my life today, for nothing.

I have already been to the store to see about picking up some more hours...I could work at the Claridge, if I wanted to and Katie can probably give me some hours at Pat's so you know...I'm sure it'll all work out.

It's making it really hard to get excited about going out of town this weekend.

Movie Mumblings...

Hostel 2 = big bag of suck.

Oh. My. God. ...

The Gin Blossoms are going to be in the next city over. I am so excited, I might actually pee.

In addition to them, I am probably going to see The Wreckers and Maroon 5 (if they ever annouce tour dates) in my near future.

I am pumped.

Brace Yourself...

Trishy trish wants to go to the KG. The most tragically fantastic nightmare of a bar ever. OHMY! I hope I have shenanigans to post in the morning.

Oh, She Is Going To Lose That Baby...

As in, actually misplace the child.

Kiki came to find me last night. She dropped the bomb on me. She's going to be a Mommy!

I just kind of sat there for a minute. Once I saw how happy she was, I couldn't help but smile for her.

I couldn't keep my eyes from scanning the newer, softer curves my dear friend is sporting. Code: HER BOOBIES ARE HUGE!

I am not going to lie. She's the last person that anyway expected would be having a child anytime soon. All I could think laying in bed was, well, I guess it's a good thing her life plan changed.

Remind me to tell you about Chad law later today. It's totally in play here.

They Aren't Your Friends, They Are Zombies. They Just Want To Eat You...

So...It has been pointed out to me that there is a T Virus outbreak.

A large portion of my friends are suddenly ill, some worse then others. Some in the hospital. I hope the Bartender is ok. But I imagine he is seeing as how I just got a text that read...

"Room 2236 bring tacos"

Zombies. Sweet. I am finally going to be in a movie!

Movie Mumblings...

So yesterday I pulled a double feature movie day.

Ocean's 13 - Not exactly a movie you go see because it's going to win an Oscar anytime soon. You go simply to be entertained. That I was. I do love the movie sin this series and it always helps when you are insanely attracted to most of the cast.

Knocked Up - Easily the most entertaining chick flick I have seen in some time. I loved this. This is the first movie that I have sat in the dark and thought to myself, "I must own this movie". It was fantastic. I laughed my ass off.

The Best Way To Start A Sentence...

So, I was surfing Barry Manilow's Myspace page, and OMG! Lots of freakshow to be found on there.